I'm caught surprised by this beautifully written and emotionally erotica read about Elle, a broken woman with dark past, who was unable to forgive herself and no longer capable of loving someone and being love. Whenever I picked up an erotica, I expected a lot of over the top sex and a little side plot to keep me engage, but Dirty felt more like a biography of Elle's journey towards self discovery with plenty of hot sex.
Elle met this sexy stranger at a gourmet candy store and they went for a drink. They had a great time, but he didn't introduce himself and didn't even give her a kiss. Yet, Elle can't keep her mind off this mysterious man for weeks. When they finally bumped into each other again at a local club, they can no longer ignore how they affect each other and from then onwards they settled into a comfortable casual sex relationship. There were plenty of sex scenes and I love everyone of them because each one was different and we can witness they relationship shifted with every one of those scene."What are you, Elle? Are you a ghost? Are you an angel or a demon? Because you can't be real."
In regards to the title Dirty, I had been kept wondering what happened to Elle and what make her this way. She insist on being detached from Dan and told him upfront that she was not looking for a relationship with him. She didn't even let him kiss her on the mouth. FSoG much? They had sex at every position imaginable to mankind, yet she won't go with him on a date. On the surface, this woman sounds like a piece of work, but due to the story told entirely from Elle's POV, we knew her internal struggle and why she had to do what she think was right.
Dan is Amazing with a capital A. Dan is just a regular good guy without a secret past or uber alpha jerk tendency. Although I did like his partiality towards sex in public. He was a passionate lover and ever so patience towards Elle's antics, for any other guy, they would have left her long time ago. His character had the perfect balance of alpha male who know what he want without being over the top, he will never push or force Elle into anything if she is not ready. I like the way he talked and so sure of himself. He sounds so bossy and totally hot. The way he took care of her when she was a mess really melted my heart. This guy is perfect in every way and I believe every women need a Dan in their life.
We don't get any Dan's POV, thus I'm not sure why he was so adamant to have Elle in his life, despite all her issue. I felt like he is kind of a saint. He embraced her and accept whatever she is willing to give him. But Elle is her own worst enemy. She can't seems to let go of her past and it constantly eating at her soul. When she finally did give herself to Dan completely, it is something amazing to behold."I have seen clouds part for the sun. I have seen rainbows. I have seen flowers in the morning, covered in dew, and I have seen sunsets so brilliant with fire they made me want to weep.
And I have seen Dan smile at me, his lips still wet from my kiss, and if I had to choose which sight moved me the most I would say it was that one."
Elle's best friend cum colleague, Marcy was a force of nature. She is bitchy, overbearing and the kind of friends that will have your back. Is great to see Elle having a true friend that is always be there for her. This just prove that as long as she is able to learn to let go of her past, she will have an amazing life ahead with her true friend and a man who love her for who she is.
Elle's past was not the core of the story, by half way through I can guess what happened to her within her dysfunctional family. This story was about forgiving oneself and others, learning to let go and embrace the future, despite fear and doubt. The ending seems to be too abrupt mainly because I can't get enough of Elle and Dan. I will check out their novella Reason Enough later."Dan made me clean and shining and bright. He made me beautiful, and I did not want to lose him."